R1P3D2 (P3 Fears)

Weight: 174.8 (+0.6, +1.4 LDW, -23.8)

So I had a gain today. I honestly think it's just my body adjusting from the 500 to the 1500 calories. I'm not too worried about it. I got up super early this morning (7:40) and rode my bike around the neighborhood for 30 minutes. I also did an ab workout with my sister. I'm still finding that it's hard for me to get all the calories I need (or am supposed to be getting). So far today I've only had about 1000. I'm about to go grab some almonds to munch on, and maybe an apple.

As you can see from the updates on my weight, my biggest P3 fear is gaining weight back. At this point, I think it's a little too soon to tell because it's only my second day on the 1500 calories. I also read somewhere that it's completely normal for your weight to fluctuate a lot at first. Like I said, going from 500 to 1500 calories in one day is probably shocking to the body. I'm working on trying to get more protein today. I plan on having some salmon for dinner, so that should help out a lot.

I'm pre-planning an apple day for Thursday for two reasons: (1) I will be at work for probably 10 to 11 hours, and apple days are incredibly easy for me to do when I work at the restaurant, and (2) I'm paranoid just in case my weight keeps going up. I'm almost to the 2 pound mark already and it's only been a couple of days. I do attribute that to the calorie change for now.

I'm working on integrating working out into my day to day life. I did good yesterday and better today. I'm sure I'll have plenty of time tomorrow, as I only work in the morning, but Thursday and Friday will both be tough days because I'll be working all day. I'll have a small break between my shifts, so maybe I'll go walking or something again. All I know is that I need to do something every day, because I know myself and if I slack off even a little bit, it'll be the start of a slippery slope!

Today was kind of a hard day. I guess with the gain, that didn't help and it actually didn't bum me out too much at first, but then I went to the mall to try on clothes. Not fun. Still. Even after losing nearly 25 pounds, I still feel so fat when I try on clothes. It made me kind of depressed, but I'm trying my best to work through those feelings and be positive about everything.

I guess my biggest worry is gaining weight. My body should get used to it, and if not, I do have my corrective tools that I can use to help fix it.

Hopefully I'll feel less gloomy tomorrow.